Drowning

There's nothing left to hope, not another
Each seed is there rotting to a different color
Then from the window I saw and felt so light
Lighter than the bud could get me or the bottle that was empty
The sight of you had me cramped until I walked up and said hi

Each night was me and you remember
I could watch and listen to you be, forever
Then one day life came and made me an offer
One to which I refused, as no dawn or dream is worth being without you

Remember each day we count down to the day we get made
I never felt so good
Recall each May, we celebrate the day we began this thing called me and you
Now it's getting late and only beeps are left to stay
I'm back to the rotting hopes on the shelf

I'm reaching wide to grab a good tomorrow
hoping that hope will spare me the sorrow
The flight I felt when with you, cannot be drowned by the buds and drinks

I'm starting to see there's no turning back
They want to end the beeps and put your heart in a bag
Now it will beat in the chest of another, it is time I say goodbye to my lover

But can you hear my voice and recall the days we have spent, each time
The dancing in the fields and the bad lyrics we filled each night sky
The jumping and the pool, the walks with the moon
How can I get through life with no you

I'm joining you on this climb to forever, it will be you and I
There's no point waiting for the rainbow after the rain has stopped its yawn
We were meant to be forever and we are going to be together
I'm taking this leap knowing I can't swim, it will not be long

With this leap I have made, I stare in amaze as I sink with no struggle
Getting closer to you by each bubble I see a light... deep in the hustle
It is you with your smile, in yours I will drown. What a pretty sight to end this struggle.

Zombie of my Pride

 

I’ll be there on the bright side helplessly
Whispering carelessly
Swearing I will never leave you all alone

Now I’m here on the dark side trembling
Crying to the empty stone
Breath stolen by the fact I’m by my own

I never thought I will be the one dreaming
Creeping towards each day
Murdered by your dismay, I can’t make it on my own

I’m at the stream, by the rainbow coloring
Crossing T’s with empty inks
Stolen dreams and yesteryear
Filling bowls with so much fears
I need you for my own

I had to steal from the morning, its rising glow
For each step so no one knows
That you gone means no more glow, I’m a zombie of my pride

I can’t believe you have decide to go wondering
Jumping hoops and clamoring
Death has come my way

I take this plunge to the stream of mystery
Have decided to go drowning
Swimming far through the sea because I can’t live on my own


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What I Believe

Nothing is set or cast in stone, we are the authors of our tomorrow.

We have the right to choose and to change our minds, we don't have to explain ourselves to you. Either you accept us for who we are or piss off.

I believe life evolved, scientific theories & facts too evolve.

You cannot be a hundred percent certain of anything. Also, if you are a one or a seven on the "Dawkins Belief Scale" then you are a liar.

We are all gifted in different ways, it will be nice if we are told which way we seem to stand taller than most because sometimes we do not know.

I most times do not care what you think on some matters, the same way I believe you care not what I think too.

Picking and choosing what I like is what religion is about.

 

Sex is for both parties to enjoy so discussing what you both like is paramount, but not as paramount to you trying them to please one another.

Whoever I choose to have sex with is my business not yours.

I believe before anyone gets married they should live together, very important.

When a relationship ends you are just at fault as the other party. Pride hides this from you.

Friends always see what you did wrong in your last relationship, but they do not want to be burdened to tell you.

You will always miss the one that got away, but that is because you are focused on the good times. Your brain is not programmed to recall the pain and sadness you felt when you were facing the trials.

I do not see anything wrong with any gender making the first move. If the receiver is not matured enough to handle that, then they are not for you.

When you meet someone you like or want to be with, do not let outside rules like age, gender, tribe, race, religion or social status be a factor. That miserable “OK PERSON” could be your happily today, biggest regret tomorrow, murderous intent the day after and the arms you call home that you never want to be without.
 
If outside rules do matter to you, then make sure your partner also accepts those rules.
 
Core values are more important to me like, parenting, spending & saving culture, ideological views, cleanliness, time-consciousness, sexual view, understanding viewpoints, communication skills, great arguer and ability to be absent when present.

There is no right person for anyone, everyone can be the right person and that is the truth.



What makes a great arguer:

• Someone who sticks to fact not feelings and is ready to accept fault when they lose on the subject matter.
• One who does not get angry and insult while talking.
• One who knows that disagreement on anything does not affect or should affect how we converse on other things.

 

If you constantly complain about your colleague’s inability to be useful to you, then you are a useless leader.

If you complain that you must do everything yourself for it to be perfect because of the above, then you are a useless teacher.

If you think you work harder than your colleagues or subordinates then you do not, you seem to have enough time on your hands to be measuring how others work.

 

Saving for the future you may never have is the best thing ever, save - you will need it for the future you never wanted.

Always live below your means, if this makes you feel bad because you don’t – then I feel worse for you.

In everything give your best, except when your best gets criticized then you don't stress.

You will always meet those people who always think they are ahead because they are smarter, do not let that get you down.

Luck is what rules the world, some have it and some don't, it is life, get over it. 

Money will change you, it is because we do not have it that we are all so humble.

Ever met those guys that talk too much and know nothing?

When someone must shout to make his point even though the point is out of this world foolish – allow him because the more you do not interrupt, the faster you will be saved from his foolish words.

 

You cannot always be yourself, don’t fool yourself that you can.

You can, when needed, stand for what you believe, don’t let anyone or yourself fool you that you can’t.

Being quiet about what you believe in the face of danger or in front of a loud mouth is not cowardice, but wisdom.



Assisted death and abortion should be an accepted thing.

When I die my body will be placed in the ground to rot. The soil will benefit from this and so will the world.

I'm not worried about what people will think of me when I'm dead, the reason is plain and simple, I'm dead... dead men don't worry.

My head houses the brain which houses me. When I die and the brain dies, the me is gone. There is no soul or spirit that is going anywhere to be judged for anything, death is the end.

For the above two reasons, there is much to live for and I will live the best way I can.

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My Temple of Life

There’s fate
Whose job is to let me know when you’re down and need my presence
Even though words won’t uplift, my presence will always be found
Found silent right next to you

I still get the chills each time you look my way
My presence shrinks and I start to cave
The thoughts that send my heart racing
Are thoughts of us lying together face to face

You’re the reason I’m not dying inside
Before you there was no point to this life
You’ve added the reason to be alive
Even if that reason is to sit silently by your side

When you are reckless, I will be the brake for you
When the world turns on you, I’ll be your break from the storm
If it’s tempting, I will make the jump beside you
I’ll never let you drown alone in your tears

My Wishes for You

Fantasies are echoes of the things we wish were
Distant drums and melodies of days without you
They begin with smiles and ends with sighs
Your existence, a reminder the cool breeze brings

I hope the ground will be so generous as to envelope my being in your presence
Your existence is infuriating and your voice, piercing
Disdain is the thought when you call my name
Hope is a reminder when you walk away

I wish today mine and your existence will be a tale once heard
A tale of two who stood together momentarily
I walk away and spend my days in fantasies
Of you gone from the very presence of me


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